It’s safe to say that I am officially lost. I’m not lost physically, but mentally I don’t know who I am or who I want to be. I feel like school was designed to pump us out of the system as quickly as possible and send us to university so that we could start our lives as working professionals. I’m now six years out of high school and almost two years out of uni, and I’m the definition of a cookie-cut young professional and I think I hate it.
I think I need career change advice. Melbourne is such a big place and I know there are so many opportunities out there for me, and I don’t want to be stuck working in finance any more. It just doesn’t interest me and I’m too young to be paid well in it. If I want to be paid properly I need twenty-something years of experience and seeing as I’m a twenty-something-year-old that’s pretty impossible for me to have.
I’m just so dissatisfied. I didn’t get to go travelling after university like I thought I would because of circumstances outside my control, and so I feel like my life is slipping away. I don’t want to be stuck in a mind-numbing job forever where people don’t appreciate me. Life is tough enough as it is. I don’t think I can cope with this 9-5 Monday-Friday grind, it’s just not for me.
Will I cry when I go in and get career counselling in Melbourne? Probably. I just don’t know what to do anymore and I know I’m going to be so overwhelmed when the career counsellor starts asking me questions about my life and my future. I truly don’t know the answer. I just hope that by talking to someone I end up figuring it out. I’m having a quarter-life crisis and I’m really sad about it. I just want to enjoy my youth.